A drop, it is dropping, a little well, a well of tears, it has no way to go, it has no way to flow, it has no way to be seen, it has no way to be drawn. How can there be joy, how can there be freedom, how can there be ease of pain. When there are no tears falling like rain. A barren land, a lonely planet, a quiet voice, a fear of men, a longing in vain, a waiting with no end, a holding together with no strength, a lost battle, a fight fought for none, a purpose without a goal, a morning without a sun, a hopelessness without end, a closed door, a longing for more, all the loving disappear, like snow in the rain, all the good fades away, so fast, fades away, i can not keep it, holding on, why, oh why, i am so lonely, so empty, so far, far away, from you God, i tried my best, i feel so alone, i wanted only a little bit of release, a little bit of love, of compassion, of hope, a little bit of you in me, i am so torn, torn apart.
I see you in the clouds you are coming, like lightning. You are never late, never too late, I wanted you so badly, I wanted to be with you all the time. I can not run from my pain, i can not run from my loneliness, only that i have not to feel it anymore. Then i feel your touch, then i feel you in front of me, all around me, you are looking me deep in the eyes, i fall, i fall on my knees, i try to speak, but i can’t, you lift me up, your hands torn, your side quenched, your loving eyes meeting mine, next to you stands the father, sitting on the throne, next to him, the spirit of life, i can see her long hair waving in the dark, all is illuminated, i can see the stars, i can see the loving heart of the only God for all mankind, i can feel his pain for the world, i can feel his longing for all mankind, for they are welcome, and i beg him to stay with him, and he is smiling at me, and in that moment i know, he wants me to be his feet, his hands, his mercy, even if it is breaking me, breaking my heart, the heart for mankind. Who shall I send, he is asking me, who? And I begin to cry, the tears are running down, and i can cry, see myself as a part of mankind, i, Lord, I will go, they need you, we need you so much.
The lights of the little village are still burning, they illuminate the streets, something is calming my heart, not fundamental, but profound, it gives me peace of mind that tomorrow, the spirit will be with me, guiding me.
